The last few months have been a period of big changes for me; I left my job at BBC Worldwide (where I was fortunate enough to have worked for the last six years), and have moved to Bristol with the aim of becoming a full time photographer. I thought this first post would be a good opportunity to explore some of the reasons behind these changes.
Without wishing to sound overly dramatic, I have, for a while now, been soberly confronting the facts of our mortality and, furthermore, that there are no guarantees on how much time we will be afforded on this planet. People who I thought would be around for much longer, suddenly weren’t, and if I asked myself the question, “If I were to die tomorrow, would I be satisfied with how I’ve lived my life?”, I found that I could not completely and honestly answer “Yes”. Things needed to change.
I know that practically everyone struggles for 'meaning' in their life, but the absurdity of life should ultimately be liberating, not restrictive. My solution is to make work that excites me, and that hopefully contributes, in some small way, something positive to this world - and that's something that I've made a start on in the last month (watch this space). Of course, I’d also like to earn a living along the way, and though I’m aware this is unlikely to be a get-rich-quick scheme, there are plenty of photographers who have achieved this, so hopefully it isn’t completely out of reach (if anyone reading this has surplus money burning a hole in their pocket, get in touch! You could commission me to take some photographs, buy a print or some Street Pussy merchandise, and support my other ambition of carrying on eating).
In the spirit of increased male vulnerability (which I think this world desperately needs), I’d like share that whilst this is all very exciting, it is in many ways also very frightening. I can’t deny that the prospect of financial and/or creative failure is terrifying. Thankfully, I'm going to lose everything at some point, so I probably shouldn't worry about knocks to my pride. Finally, I am privileged to have a fantastic network of friends, family and peers whose support has been, and continues to be, of immeasurable importance to me in this endeavour - so thank you, it means a lot to me.
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